OCD FREE LIFE

you renewer free of OCD. I mean , it might be just my point of view. But again, I might be wrong, I wish I am wrong at this. There's always a thing in me, you know something which keeps me doing a little of what I am not suppose to do. you know like while reading , I keep saying "and and" in between. you know an OCD ritual. I know it doesn't bothersome so much, but still, its an OCD part. What I really wanted to say here is, OCD is pretty changing all the time. I have seen the obsessions to same things, differently. and also to different things , similarly. I guess thats what OCD is about. One time you are scared to touch the tap, and other times, it starts becoming normal, all over again. Thus, its important to keep a very vigilant watch on your behaviour and sometimes justify you not falling for OCD ritual by telling that earlier also you haven't done it. OCD is a monster. and a pretty strong one. But you gotta be smart.

The course of life is never the same. Sometimes you feel ecstatic, and other times like trash. its not the same thing every time. Sometimes all you need is more patience and Sometimes all you need is a better perspective. if you want to cry, then cry. if you want to shout, the shout. if you wanna talk to someone, then talk. do whatever it takes. but always remember things get fine when you work on them, not by themselves. dont give up. work.

well , no matter what you read, you find that caffeine exaggerate symptoms of OCD. and as a person, who is shit scared go OCD, you dont want to take a chance. And you think that its fine to leave the coffee for good. But then you always come back to it. and now it has happened a lot of times, this romantic relation of break ups and make ups between you and the caffeine world. All the beautiful cafes, serving the best coffee, the filters radiating the aroma of dark roasted arabica. man that is something. and you dont wanna give it up. JUST DONT GIVE UP. the key is to know, how much is bad? and forget the literature, your body tells you the exact amount that is fine/good/tolerated well with you. all you have to do is listen to it. hydrate yourself well. Infact the whole idea of making a cup of coffee in a day is kinda special to me. I wait for it the entire day and savour it. All this excitement definitely releases good neurotransmitters in me and I feel happy abou...

sometimes its difficult comprehend your state of mind. its vaguely sad, partially dissatisfied with life and for some reason you are feeling cheated. your brain knows that you are in vulnerable state of mind. and so does your OCD. you try hard to pin point that one thing, that one reason, that one excuse to blame your entire state of mind on, but you don't know that. its not that you can think of any reason, you have plenty of reasons that you can blame on to, but you dont know which one. you continue to feel the same way, unless you do something about it. its like a very active thing, and remaining passive is costing you. costing you your peace of mind. I know you had been told the beauty of passiveness in life, knowingly or unknowingly by in numerous people through out your life. you feel the best things in life are suppose to feel effortless, are suppose to be felt, just like that. But believe me, all this passiveness is so over rated. Be active. Be responsible f...

JUST AN EXAMPLE. Like in my previous post, I have mentioned about how eating less of carbs helped. following that , I got emails for a sample days plan. So I created this post. The first food of the day...... just our of curiosity I thought let’s try almond milk cappuccino from Starbucks.  Well , it’s not happening again.  Though right in nutrition , it wasn’t good to taste.  I had some fried chicken in ghee and salmon salad. Yes the servings of green was a lil too much, but none the less I enjoyed it.  Cheese was never missed in the salad.  The lemon on salad was a game changer. Never thought it could be like this.  I removed the breads that I got in the salad. It took a little courage though.  I was feeling pretty drowsy by 4 pm and has to attend this really important meeting. What to do.  So I though of a double shot macchiato.  Though this was a little much caffeine. But yeah. It worked....

that sort of headedness, that you dont have a name for.......that doesn't go even after a good 6 hour sleep. The heaviness in your head. I tried doing a lot of things. but its just there. Eventually I started living with it. and it was like this new normal. like an absolute normal state of mind. I don't feel that its there anymore. Sometimes I wonder, if it is the mental fight that you do towards a thing that gives that thing the strength to present itself more vividly? or you just get adjusted. or maybe that things just go away when you stop resisting it.

It's not easy. Definitely. When you are loosing the battle of life to a bad OCD, you need to stop.  Think.  And then act.  It's important to not do the urge.  A d when you don't do that,  A power is endowed on you.  A power that helps you fight OCD.  God help those who help themselves. And of you want to win,  Work hard.  Work Brave. Work Fearlessly.  Nothing is permanent in life.  Nothing.  Not you.  Not OCD either.  Then why worry. 

Water, the major component that makes us. Its water. now its more than enough, that its been emphasised nth number of times, the importance of water in our daily life. All our biological processes require water. But the reality is, almost everyone doesn't take optimum quantity of water. Where as an average person should consume 2-3 litres of water, I myself used to have hardly just 800ml to1 L in a day. And that too without realising it. I bought a bottle from the Nike Store. A good almost 2 litre bottle and my aim is to finish it twice. Daily. well, m to start with, I didn't feel much difference, except my trips to washrooms increased. But as the days go by, I started having a feel of general well being. dont underestimate the power of water. drink it. and you will see it does wonder to you.

In my experience of going through a lot of diets, I felt that carbs eating used to increase my OCD a little up by the notch, but I dont think that its something that I would consider in modifying my diet. I tried ketogenic diet, and that was really helpful. I would say amazing. I felt good. I lost weight 89 Kgs to 71 Kgs. I felt more energetic. but I couldn't sustain that as a lifestyle. I felt more energetic, hence I ran better, my workouts were better. and definitely my OCD got much lesser. not was it entirely diet. I dont think so. I feel when you feel good about yourself. Your OCD does decrease. And thats all what matters. feel good about things. eat good. exercise till you sweat like crazy. and you know what-that will help your OCD. nothing like what you didn't already know. I know. its always good to hear.

I know it sounds simple. I know it sounds foolish. I know the monster won't let you escape, so easily. But then, who said, life is going to be easy. whenever I feel that OCD is striking its hammer on me, I do something. Because always remember, its important what you do and not what you feel. I take a pencil, a paper, and I draw. I indulge myself for 15 minutes in it. I say, whatever I a,m feeling, it can wait for 15 minutes. and if I die in these, then maybe thats how its suppose to be, so let it be. I draw, and I draw, and I escape. PS: I do like my iPad Pro and p encil too, its very handy.

Last night I wasn't able to sleep. and I could totally feel the sleep in my eyes. My body, and in my soul. every cell in my body knew that I wanted to sleep. But I wasn't able to. I realised that more I was trying to do it, the more difficult it was becoming. and for some reason, so was my anxiety. I thought. lets go on a train ride. something in my mind. I started. all the stations, passengers, food, everything in the train was something that I wanted. something out of imagination, but something that I wanted. there was no space for OCD. and as I was cursing in the train, I fell asleep. I woke up after 8 hours. And I felt as I really came out of the station, all fresh. let your subconscious do the magic, just give it a clue and leave on it.

yeah, thats right. we all have wished for "if only's" in our lives.  and like a person without OCD must have had a long list of it, a person with OCD, more or less had wishes"what if, I didn't have OCD." thats all. and thats a very wishful thinking. Dont stop wishing. all I have to say, work on that wish. I know OCD doesn't go away (I think so) but you can always keep it checked. You can always win. You can always win every single battle.  So when you wish, Just don't only wish, work for it. always remember: its not what you think, but what you do that counts.

For some reason, you know it. you know, that you have a gifted mind. you know that because your mind is sharper, smarter and more intelligent than average, you are are slo having OCD. Now, I am not talking science. nah. I am just telling that gut feeling which everyone of us have. or at least a lot of us. so, lets put this smarter brain to act. Lets fight against OCD. OCD is strong, physically. But lets be smart Mentally. And we can winnower OCD.

isn't it weird that the whole idea of stillness is so alien to OCD mind. I try sometimes to achieve that stillness that people talk all the time, but believe me its not that easy. I see the world around and I see people enjoying a walk, an ice cream, maybe a single cup of coffee. And I question to myself , do I enjoy these, or is my OCD always troubling me. more often than not, answer is what you think it is. OCD. I then realised, its important to know how to enjoy moments of life rather than to wait for that one fine day when you will be OCD free. And when you do that, OCD diminishes. Its like OCD starts realising that you at some point knows that its just fake signals of mind. Stillness. Still looking for it.

When I started doing meditation, it was so tough. I clearly remember the urge to open my eyes, just in 2 seconds. And I clearly thought of thwo things: 1.i don't think I can do any meditation. 2.i don't think it will be useful to me. So I thought of just leaving it.  But then every blog that I read, emphasized on meditation. I thought why not do it for 21 days. Without stopping. And I did that.  I don't know, but it helps tremendously.  And now I am able to do meditation  I still want to open my eyes in between.  And sometimes I do.  But it's worth doing.

I know it might sound a lite crazy. But sometime when you are having an urge to do your compulsion, pick up your phone and take a picture of something very ordinary in front of you. Spend sometime to edit it on your phone. The idea should be to make it a master piece.  Take your time and do it.  And the best part is by the time your masterpiece is ready, your urge must have gone down. Hope so. 

You cant just let it be. You need to be in a constant realm where you need to remind yourself that OCD is a wiring problem in your brain.  And you are not a bad person.  And it's not you who is thinking absurd thoughts. It's the OCD.  You are amazing. You are the best.  Dont worry. 

thats something interesting. whenever you are getting that urge to do your compulsion. Just done thing, wait for 15 minutes. I dont write huge, big blogs. I know we are bunch of impatient people and want to come to point , fast. hence. so when you wait for these 15 minutes, dont think about anything related to your urge, thats why you have to engage your self in any activity. continuously, with full mind. I nam not saying you to not do the compulsion. Just postpone it for 15 minutes. more often than not, you will see that urge fades. try it and please leave your comments.

I dont know if its true, but sometimes when you are extremely tired. And you know , somewhere deep inside that you will not be performing the compulsion, because you are tired as hell. Again , you are not sure about it. In that moment, sometimes, old subsides, the urge fades away. and suddenly the correct rational of doing things start. And I think, at that moment, you suddenly feel victorious. And the energy starts returning to you. Its not easy to be a part of something so nasty. so nasty that you almost hate to be a part of it. keep finding the ways, you will find eventually the way that u d been looking for.

yeah, thats right. everyone who is suffering from OCD, well almost everyone, must have said this or its equivalent many times. But the fact is, it never happens just by saying. Its important to know that no matter how much you hate OCD, how much you call it names, it will never go on its own. You have to work hard. I know it's not something that is visible. you only get its effects in form of urges, compulsions to do. But think of it as a devil standing right in front of you. And this monster is so powerful, because you had been giving into its demands. for a pretty long time. So , you wanna win it? then fight for it. Let you be in little pain. Let you be anxious. Let you be in doubt. but don't fall for it. that life would still be worth living than this life with OCD tormenting you. 

It's so strange. While rest of the world, probable, gets up after a good 6 hour sleep all refreshed, I woke up as if I was having a 6 hour long conversation with someone. And this is definitely not the conversation yoy wanted to have.  One thing that I felt is very important in OCD treatment is  good sleep. Hence  it's important to have good sleeping arrangements. Right temperature.  Right mattress.  Right Pillow.  And ofcourse, Right you.