For some reason, you know it. you know, that you have a gifted mind. you know that because your mind is sharper, smarter and more intelligent than average, you are are slo having OCD. Now, I am not talking science. nah.
I am just telling that gut feeling which everyone of us have.
or at least a lot of us.
so, lets put this smarter brain to act. Lets fight against OCD. OCD is strong, physically. But lets be smart Mentally. And we can winnower OCD.
you renewer free of OCD. I mean , it might be just my point of view. But again, I might be wrong, I wish I am wrong at this. There's always a thing in me, you know something which keeps me doing a little of what I am not suppose to do. you know like while reading , I keep saying "and and" in between. you know an OCD ritual. I know it doesn't bothersome so much, but still, its an OCD part. What I really wanted to say here is, OCD is pretty changing all the time. I have seen the obsessions to same things, differently. and also to different things , similarly. I guess thats what OCD is about. One time you are scared to touch the tap, and other times, it starts becoming normal, all over again. Thus, its important to keep a very vigilant watch on your behaviour and sometimes justify you not falling for OCD ritual by telling that earlier also you haven't done it. OCD is a monster. and a pretty strong one. But you gotta be smart.
Last night I wasn't able to sleep. and I could totally feel the sleep in my eyes. My body, and in my soul. every cell in my body knew that I wanted to sleep. But I wasn't able to. I realised that more I was trying to do it, the more difficult it was becoming. and for some reason, so was my anxiety. I thought. lets go on a train ride. something in my mind. I started. all the stations, passengers, food, everything in the train was something that I wanted. something out of imagination, but something that I wanted. there was no space for OCD. and as I was cursing in the train, I fell asleep. I woke up after 8 hours. And I felt as I really came out of the station, all fresh. let your subconscious do the magic, just give it a clue and leave on it.
I dont know if its true, but sometimes when you are extremely tired. And you know , somewhere deep inside that you will not be performing the compulsion, because you are tired as hell. Again , you are not sure about it. In that moment, sometimes, old subsides, the urge fades away. and suddenly the correct rational of doing things start. And I think, at that moment, you suddenly feel victorious. And the energy starts returning to you. Its not easy to be a part of something so nasty. so nasty that you almost hate to be a part of it. keep finding the ways, you will find eventually the way that u d been looking for.
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